I often keep up with what’s selling in the manga world, so it’s not a surprise that I check out ICv2’s Manga Week when the site posts up interviews and insights about the industry. What caught my eye this time was Kentaro Miura’s Berserk still being a top-seller and a top manga franchise in the English-speaking side of the world.

How popular is Berserk right now? It was the top manga franchise of Fall 2023 beating out everything that was either Shonen Jump, Junji Ito or Attack on Titan. The Deluxe Editions have sold well for all of 2023, especially the first edition (which contains Volumes 1-3 of the series). It helps that Dark Horse Comics, the North American publisher for the manga, has been promoting the Berserk Deluxe Editions non-stop. Even when they didn’t announce anything new at Anime NYC last year, Dark Horse made a huge note about the latest Berserk Deluxe Edition that would come out.

I think it’s great that Berserk is getting a lot more attention (especially after Kentaro Miura died) because this is a story about trauma and how we still carry the wounds of it at times.

In my opinion, Berserk is a story about people trying to overcome their own trauma – one caused by interpersonal relations. Ultimately, it’s about three people in particular. Guts, the main hero who falls into despair after his experiences in the Golden Age Arc and has to deal with the curse of constantly being hunted by monsters beyond his imagination. Griffith, the antagonist who once had admirable dreams, but fully gives into darkness after going through painful torture and is the main source of Guts’ trauma. And Casca, the strong heroine who becomes a victim of Griffith’s desires and mentally shattered as a result until recent events in the manga. The connection between all three characters says it all – sometimes, the trauma caused is not from strangers who are “dangerous,” but those closest and dearest to us.

Berserk is so relatable because we carry on the weight of whatever personal trauma we experienced without realizing its hold on us until it becomes apparent. The worse thing is we often have a very hard time talking about it.

Around 2021, I heard about a certain book about trauma that took during the COVID pandemic. It was Bessel van der Kolk’s The Body Keeps the Score. Originally published in 2014, the book blew up for good reason because COVID forced everyone to confront issues kept hidden for a long time. Van der Kolk talks about how horrible people can be to one another and that psychiatry seems to ignore the complexity of trauma when it comes to helping its victims.

Because of the nuance and how long it takes to heal, maybe that’s why we can’t talk about trauma easily.

Which is why I want to get to this point – I sometimes find it hard to talk about Berserk because of the sexual violence and horror aspects. Yes, fans love to call it the GOAT and/or recommending the manga to other manga/Western comics fans. But I will say I can’t exactly recommend Berserk to anyone who’s experienced trauma, especially sexual trauma. If they haven’t come to terms and/or processed their pain, why would any manga fan shove Berserk in their face? I know there’s heavy debate about microagressions and triggers, but just because it’s critically-acclaimed doesn’t mean it’s for everyone.

I will say that the sexual violence in Berserk is used in a way to highlight the brutality of the real world at times. It serves its purpose in the story. Maybe I feel that Berserk is about acknowledging the dark side of life. The world is full of absolute cruelty. And maybe more importantly, you never fully move on. That’s the key point. Moments that hurt will stick by you for a long time. People love to shame others for not being able to move on and/or cheer up. They don’t know how trauma forces its victims to stay still out of a realistic yet unhelpful fear of certain kinds of people.

But you can still move forward. I’m admired by Guts fighting in the face of despair. He embodies the belief that you probably can never move on from whatever emotional pain you experience and that’s okay. At least take the steps to make your own life worth living. It’s the best you can do for yourself.

And a good start to moving forward is accepting the bad thoughts. I recently read how positive thinking is pushed so hard to promote better mental health. Some positivity is fine, but there’s so much pain in this world that all the wellness industry strategies in the world will never make go away. It is a huge problem when we’re told to grit and grind while suppressing our inner-most vulnerabilities.

A lot of people can’t handle that kind of vulnerability. Maybe that’s why I’m happy that Berserk is being discovered by new fans. Guts is a strong yet so very vulnerable hero. I think it’s those vulnerabilities due to his trauma that allow him to gain some very good friends (Puck, Farnese, Serpico, Isidro, and Schierke) along the way who genuinely care about him.

We all want someone to acknowledge our pain and be willing to sit with and stick by us through the neck of it all.

I remember a friend who once told me that when they went to see someone perform, all of their grief and vulnerability was so apparent that they wished that they didn’t need to air it out since a lot of people can’t handle it. I told them I can handle it and they said that I was built different.

Much like the popularity of Berserk these days and what I hope the series encourages, I want my difference of being able to sit with trauma to be the norm.